Sunday, November 29, 2015

Morrab Library


I've been meaning to post about this place for awhile, one of my favorites from my last trip to England. The Morrab Library is a Georgian lending library of the precise sort that Austen heroines like Catherine Morland would have utilized, but remarkably, it's still functioning in its original purpose -- as a library.

Even more remarkably, it still has many of the books from back then, on the shelves and ready for readers. I was amazed to see some of the same books that I'd seen on the wired-off shelves of other great houses I'd visited, and very jealous of locals in Penzance, where the library is located, who can take out a membership and come here at any time. You are able to purchase a day pass, however, and I spent the morning there -- part of me wanted to blow off my plans for the rest of the day and just spend the entire day there, perusing various old books in this amazing atmosphere.

Even without lingering all day to read, I still enjoyed the library very much. You could almost feel the ghosts of young ladies there, muslin dresses swishing as they went from room to room, eagerly perusing the shelves in search of something new to read. Ooh, there is a new novel, by the author of Sense and Sensibility! Pride and Prejudice, is the name of it. I must certainly take this one out and give it a read.*





* The library was actually established in 1818, so it's not quite old enough for my little fantasy. But whatever, it's a fantasy! It certainly felt old enough.

Friday, November 20, 2015

Servants' Incomes

I've been meaning to make this post as a follow-up to my post on Regency incomes for the gentry for awhile, and now am finally getting around to it. The driver was the excellent The Complete Servant, which was written by Samuel and Sarah Adams, who had worked for many years and in many positions in service, and it's absolutely packed with little tidbits. The tidbit I wanted to focus on, though, was some of the incomes listed, to give some context to what I'd posted earlier, which began at £100 and went up to £4,000+.

Interestingly, there were some salaries that went well up into that £100 range. Although a land steward is listed, a salary is not given, but the house steward's salary range was £100-250, and I think the land steward would be almost guaranteed to have a higher salary (even in this time, I've seen evidence of the house steward position going away and being replaced by a butler-steward, which I'm glad of, as it was my assumption). Depending on where old Mr. Wickham fell into this range, he might have had a mild claim to gentility, at least so far as income was concerned, but that he had to work for a gentleman, to earn his living (and not in one of the "genteel" professions), makes it a very tenuous claim. Still, though, I could see perhaps a poorer relation with an aptitude for the job being brought on as a land steward and quietly being given this salary, in some families, in the same way an unmarried niece or other female relation might serve as a housekeeper.

To give the best overview, here is the household staff listed for one household establishment that would have had profits of £9,000 to £11,000 per year. This book was published in 1825, so I don't think the figures should be too inflated from the time period we're more concerned with. The amounts were given in guineas, but I've converted them to pounds, and left the decimals to make them easier to understand for modern readers. To get the shillings, multiply the decimal amount by 20, as there were 20 shillings in a pound.

“We have been favoured with the following as the present Household Establishment of a respectable Country Gentleman, with a young family, whose Net Income is from 16,000£. to 18,000£. a Year, and whose expenses do not exceed 7,000£.; vis —

House-Keeper: 24 Guineas (£25.2)
Female Teacher: 20 Guineas (£21)
Lady’s-Maid: 20 Guineas (£21)
Head Nurse: 20 Guineas (£21)
Second Ditto: 10 Guineas (£10.5)
Nursery-Maid: 7 Guineas (£7.35)
Upper House-Maid: 15 Guineas (£15.75)
Under House-Maid: 14 Guineas (£14.7)
Kitchen-Maid: 14 Guineas (£14.7)
Upper Laundry-Maid: 14 Guineas (£14.7)
Under Ditto: 10 Guineas (£10.5)
Dairy-Maid: 8 Guineas (£8.4)
Second Ditto: 7 Guineas (£7.35)
Still-Room Maid: 9 Guineas (£9.45)
Scullion: 9 Guineas (£9.45)
A French Man-Cook: 80 Guineas (£84)
Butler: 50 Guineas (£52.5)
Coachman: 28 Guineas (£29.4)
Footman: 24 Guineas (£25.2)
Under Ditto: 20 Guineas (£21)
Groom: His Liveries and a Gratuity
Lady’s Groom: 12 Guineas (£12.6)
Nursery-Room Boy, Clothes and a Gratuity
Head Game-Keeper: 70 Guineas (£73.5) a year, and 13s per Week for Board-Wages;—a House and Firing
Assistant Ditto, 12s per Week.”

Viewing these salaries, it's impossible to ignore how much: 1. women were screwed; and 2. how tremendously large the wealth gap was. The story for the next century-plus after this is the rise of the middle class, beginning first with trade but then moving into industry. Factories provided workers with new options for earning, and made wages more competitive, although they also brought with them often-unhealthy working environments. This, in turn, made the great estates more difficult to keep staffed at the levels they had been.

Elizabeth Bennet, even if she had not married, would still have been making nearly the maximum wage for a female housekeeper, whose wages ranged from 25-50 guineas. Granted, the housekeeper had her room and board covered, which Elizabeth would not have. So a position as a companion might have been quite suitable for her, in giving her room and board and still some reasonable amount of money to spend on personal items. Granted, it's nothing compared to what she has as Mrs. Darcy, but neither is it starving in hedgerows. She would not have been qualified to be a governess, but Jane Fairfax would have had a salary of between £25 and £125 per year to look forward to.

One of the other interesting entries is the male cook, who may be presumed to be French, and who the Adamses note would earn two or three times the income of an experienced female English cook. When much of the French aristocracy was wiped out, their cooks all had to go elsewhere to earn a living. Some opened restaurants in Paris, while others fled to England. They were not tremendously common, though -- kept in 300-400 wealthy households, and 40-50 London hotels, by the Adams's estimation. I don't see Mr. Darcy as someone who has a French cook (although Mrs. Bennet supposes he has two or three French cooks at least). I think he's more traditional and has gone the more traditional route, particularly since it could be considered unpatriotic to keep a French cook -- and certainly if there was a female English cook on staff when he inherited the estate, he would have kept her on. So of the above salaries, I would see him as putting those savings into another housemaid, and an under-coachman and perhaps another groom for the stables.

Regardless of his cook, I think Mr. Darcy would have treated his servants well, and you can expect his servants' incomes would have been a bit higher than these, which tend to be on the lower end of the spectrum given by the Adamses for various roles later in the book.

Sunday, November 15, 2015

What to call Mr. Darcy

So once again I am not blogging about what I had intended to blog about, but this is one that I've been struggling with pretty much ever since I started writing in this genre. And that is what Elizabeth should call Mr. Darcy once they are married.

In the Constant Love series, I established that Elizabeth was having none of this Fitzwilliam nonsense early on:

“Darcy – ”

“Are you to call me Darcy, too?” he cried. “Can no one use my Christian name, not even my own wife?”

Elizabeth had spent much time meditating on what she would call him, when they were finally married, and “Fitzwilliam” had seemed too much, but she was surprised by the vehemence of his reaction.

“Darcy, you must own that Fitzwilliam has far too many syllables for everyday use. What did your parents call you?”

“Son,” he admitted, which filled her with mirth.
(Interestingly, only one reader has ever pointed out that Fitzwilliam is the same number of syllables as Elizabeth!)

I had multiple reasons for deciding to have her call him Darcy. The first and foremost is that to me, Mr. Darcy is Mr. Darcy. It's the identity he has developed throughout the entire novel in Pride and Prejudice. We've had this character for 200+ years, and none of us are on a Christian name basis with him! So to depart significantly from Mr. Darcy just seemed weird to me, and as Austen does refer to him as Darcy outside of dialogue, it seemed the least departure without Elizabeth calling him Mr. Darcy both in mixed company (when she would always call him Mr. Darcy) and among family or when they are alone.

The second is that there are already Fitzwilliams in the story. Presumably Jane Austen was not planning for there to be thousands of variations and continuations of her novel, so she never foresaw that having a character named Colonel Fitzwilliam and a character with the first name Fitzwilliam would create potential for confusion! To do a continuation, and add in even more people from the Fitzwilliam family into the mix just added to that potential for confusion.

And the third is that it somehow felt right to me that Elizabeth, who is not a conventional woman for that time, would call her husband what his male friends would. To me, it showed empowerment, and that her opinions are respected as much by him (if not more) as those of other men. And that he makes nothing more than a token protest and then allows her to continue to do so also says something about their married relationship dynamic.

I didn't get too many complaints about having done this, but there were a few readers who didn't like it, and I get that. In this new story that I've been working on, though, I've struggled with it once again. Elizabeth has been unhappily married (for a thankfully brief time) to Mr. Collins. That has changed her, and she's not exactly the same bold woman who married Mr. Darcy in ACL; one of the main themes of the story is how she returns to that, and Mr. Darcy's influence is, of course, a part of this.

So I ended up going with mostly Mr. Darcy, even once they are married, although by the time they reach this point, she is half-teasing when she calls him that. Every once and awhile, I did mix in a Fitzwilliam, and this time it felt right. Even then, it needed some explanation, and I expect every story where they make that transition to greater intimacy probably will:

“Well, Mr. Darcy, you have finally found a way to render me entirely speechless.”

“Are you still to call me Mr. Darcy, even now?”

“Why should I not? It is a name with which I have every possible pleasant association.”

“I hope it shall always continue to be.”

So I'm curious, readers -- which name do you prefer? I want to try a poll for the first time here!


What should Elizabeth call Mr. Darcy?

Mr. Darcy, all the time
Darcy, in private
Fitzwilliam, in private
It depends on the story
It doesn't really matter that much
Quiz Maker

Sunday, November 1, 2015

Writing and publishing update, and an excerpt

I was meant to be posting about servants' incomes this weekend, and I do still intend to get to this, but my brain has been entirely eaten by a new story. How appropriate, since yesterday was Halloween -- it's like a zombie story!

It may come as a surprise to some of you that I do read some erotica, given the chasteness of the Constant Love series, compared to some other books in this genre. But the series has always been about continuing from where the original left off, in the closest tone to Austen's work that I can manage. And when I first began working with these characters, in their sweet little repressed Regency way, they would basically throw me out of the bedroom before anything got too heated. So I left them be.

When I published A Constant Love, I noticed what seemed a rash of Austenesque erotica stories on the historical romance lists around it, and checked out some that were Kindle Unlimited offers. They just didn't work for me, because I could not see the characters, as people of their times, acting in ways that felt very unrealistic to me. So I started mulling over a scenario that would let them be realistic, and still have hot, lovely sex. I did think of the scenario, and periodically have been piecing together bits of the plot in my head, but given I am editing the second book in the ACL series, and writing the third, I told myself I needed to be disciplined and save this story for later.

On Friday, whole sentences started forming themselves in my head, rapid-fire, and I decided discipline had to go out the window for awhile. Sometimes writing is just that -- discipline -- and requires sitting down and working at thoughtfully crafting each sentence. Sometimes, and these are the most magical times, the story just seems to well up in my head, and it is all I can do to get it typed out at the pace that it forms. So I decided to give in to the creative rush.

I may or may not need to finish at least a draft of this story before I move back to my other works. It's long been possible that my self-imposed deadline of having A Change of Legacies ready for publication by the end of this year will not be met, and I may decide to bring out the shorter Less Proud and More Persuasive first, so at least I've managed to get something out before the end of the year (it also helps that I will most certainly have this new story as a gap-filler between longer works ready for publication at some point next year).

I know some readers have been impatient for the next book in the series to come out -- and I love that you want to read it! I work full-time in addition to my writing endeavors, so I only have so much time to work on writing and publishing. Getting to spend a weekend doing what I truly love -- hammering out a huge portion of a story -- has been absolutely delightful for me. And at some point, all of these stories will be published, I promise.

For now, I'll at least leave you with something of my productive weekend, the prologue from the new story, which is tentatively titled Temporary Mistress. It's not smutty at all, and indeed I expect that the smut-to-story ratio will hopefully make it a worthwhile read even for those who prefer to skip the naughty bits. This is very much in draft form, and probably still contains some present tense -- that is my natural voice, and when I'm writing quickly I tend to find myself slipping into it. I'd love feedback, positive or negative!




Prologue

May 29, 1815

Near Meryton village, in Hertfordshire, two sisters who had always been particularly close were so fortunate as to live within three miles of each other. One was happily married, and while it would be impolite to say the other was happily widowed, it may be said that she was more content in her widowed state than she had been in her married one.

“My dear Lizzy,” said the married sister, who was called Jane, to the other. “We are to have company at Netherfield soon -- a small house-party, only, but I hope you will join in our dinners, and perhaps a ball, if I am able to convince Charles that we should have one.”

“My year is very nearly complete,” replied Elizabeth, who would have rejoined society earlier, if she could have done so without any damage to her reputation. “I have for some time been desirous of participating in society, and I would be very pleased to make my re-entrance at Netherfield.”

“Oh, Lizzy, I am so delighted that you should say that,” said Jane. “I must tell you, though, that Mr. Darcy is to be one of the party. I know you and he did not get on well, and I hope you shall be able to meet as polite acquaintances, at least.”

“Jane, dear sister, it has been better than three years since I have seen him, although he did write to express his condolences on the death of my husband, which quite surprised me. I cannot say that I am looking forward to making his acquaintance again, but I shall certainly be polite to him. I do wonder, though, at his coming to Netherfield. I had thought the breach between him and Charles to be irreconcilable.”

“Charles is much too amiable to maintain an irreconcilable breach,” said Jane, smiling as though to indicate thoroughly how well her own amiableness mirrored that of her husband. “He and Mr. Darcy met at White’s last winter, and they have gradually renewed their acquaintance, with some apology -- I understand -- on the part of Mr. Darcy, who felt himself in the wrong for that which occurred between them some years ago, although Charles says it was as much his fault as Mr. Darcy’s.”

“Well, I had not imagined Mr. Darcy capable of admitting wrongdoing in any matter, so I am quite surprised at what you say, Jane. I shall meet Mr. Darcy politely, as you ask, and perhaps if he is capable of admitting himself in the wrong, now, we shall get on better than we did before.”

Before the two ladies could converse further, Mrs. Hill entered the parlour, and said, “Mrs. Collins, if you please, one of your tenants is in the kitchen, and requesting an audience with you.”

Elizabeth rose, and smiled apologetically at her sister, who rose as well, and said she should be going anyway; there were a great many preparations to make, for the house party. Thus they separated, Mrs. Bingley to make her return to Netherfield Park, and Mrs. Collins for Longbourn’s kitchen.

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November 30,1811

Breakfast at Darcy House, and Charles Bingley moping over the sideboard. Fitzwilliam Darcy surveyed his friend, and wondered if he has taken on an impossible task, in attempting to make him forget Jane Bennet.

It had been easy enough at first. With the eager assistance of Charles’s sister, Caroline Bingley, the flaws of Miss Bingley’s family had been noted, and to these flaws Darcy had added, gently, the lack of evidence that Miss Bennet held any romantic affections for the man who stood dangerously close to becoming her particular suitor.

Charles could rather easily be convinced into believing these things, but those things believed by Charles Bingley’s head were not so easily absorbed by his heart, and this accounted for his moping over the sideboard.

This could be rectified, though, Darcy thought. He abhorred the idea of conspiring over anything with Caroline Bingley, but he agreed with her that this was necessary, and that with a little distance from Jane Bingley, Charles would soon enough forget the young lady he had called his angel. In time, then, he might find another angel, one of more appropriate family and fortune.

Charles sat down with his plate, eventually, and the selections thereupon made it clear to Darcy that his friend’s appetite had not been much affected, which he took as a positive sign. Time, time was all that was needed to make everyone forget of the Bennets, and time would be afforded to them there, along with every distraction London had to offer.

Darcy’s plan seemed poised for success through breakfast, and the pot of coffee that followed it, taken leisurely in the parlour. Miller came in with the post, and there was a letter for Charles, which was studied silently for some time, before he attempted to comment upon it.

“My God,” Charles said, “Mr. Bennet has passed. There was some trouble with his heart, and apparently he succumbed to it.”

“Charles, are you quite sure?” Darcy asked, for his mind was racing as to how this affected Elizabeth Bennet, and as he had determined to think no more of any Bennets, this was most troubling.

“Sir William Lucas wrote me of it,” Charles said. “He has been assisting Mr. Phillips and Mr. Collins with the preparations for the funeral.”

“Those poor girls,” Darcy murmured, although he thought only, poor Elizabeth!

“I think the same, Darcy. I think that I should go to them -- to Jane,” Charles said. “I know you said you do not think she has affection for me, but everything has changed, and I am not sure that she did not -- “

“Charles, I beg you, do not act hastily. Miss Bennet will only be more vulnerable in her present situation, for losing all her security in life. I expect she would gladly accept anyone that came to her and seemed likely to secure her a home. Is that all you seek in a wife, is gratitude, for putting a roof above her head?”

It was at this moment that Fitzwilliam Darcy lost his particular friend, for Charles Bingley, not ever before having been required to seriously examine anything his life, did now examine his present situation, and his most recent courtship, and said, “Err -- no. What I seek in a wife is a sweet, amiable temper, a pretty turn of countenance, and a respect of my thoughts, and all of these things I had in Miss Bennet, and you convinced me I should not pursue her because of her family, and because she was not attached to me.”

Darcy nodded, acknowledging that all his friend was true, and wondering what was to come next.

“I am going to go back to Netherfield,” Charles said. “I hope Miss Bennet is still able to see me in her present situation, and if she is, that she shall accept my hand in marriage. For even if such an exquisite creature is marrying me for my fortune, I will care not. I will enjoy my sweet wife, and even if she does not love me as I do her, I have no doubt of her faithfulness and continuing sweet temper.”

"This is precisely why we determined to separate you from Miss Bennet," Darcy said, unthinkingly.

“You determined? You mean this was planned? All of these seemingly casual conversations about Miss Bennet was the result of some determination between you and my sister?”

“Yes, Charles, we thought it best for you.”

“Did no-one think perhaps I might be able to determine what is best for myself!” Charles shouted. “Do you all think I am a child, rather than the head of my household? A feeble-minded half-wit, that you must conspire around?”

“That is not at all what we thought. But a man in love may not think so clearly -- “

“I am thinking clearly enough! I am thinking that if there is a woman in this world that I love, and I can secure her hand, there is absolutely no reason why I should not!”

“Charles, think of what you are saying. Think of what you are taking on -- not just Miss Bennet, but the whole family. Are you prepared to have the mother and the silly sisters living under your roof at Netherfield?”

“I am not so selfish as you, Darcy. If I can ease Miss Bennet’s present distress by offering a home to her family, that will be pleasing to me, not abhorrent.”

“You think me selfish?”

“Yes, Darcy, I do, although if I must sum you up in one word, I suppose it would be pride, and I suppose I would say that you have spent so long in pride of the Darcy name, and presuming of what those who hold the Darcy name should do -- and apparently what friends of those who hold the Darcy name must do -- that you have never, since I have known you, acted in a manner as to pursue your own happiness. Now that I am presented with the choice, I have no interest in being like you. I will pursue my own happiness, and I will ask for Miss Bennet’s hand, and I do not care if you do not like it, you arrogant arse.”

And that had been the end. The words, meant to wound; the acquaintance, meant to end.  Darcy, left reeling amongst the words of his protégé, wondering what was it like to do what Charles had mentioned -- what was it like to pursue his own happiness?

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November 27,1811

It happened so quickly, they did not even have time to send for Mr. Jones. They were recounting all that had happened at the Netherfield ball over breakfast, when Mr. Bennet complained of a strange sensation in his arm. His wife said it sounded precisely like her nervous attacks, which silenced him for awhile, but Elizabeth could see that he was truly not well. His countenance appeared pale, glistening with sweat, and she asked if they should send for the apothecary.

“Not yet, Lizzy. I think I shall just go and sit quietly in my library for a time,” he said.

He rose, took a few steps toward the door, and collapsed, clutching his chest. Minutes later, he was gone.

Elizabeth was not allowed the luxury of shock, or grief, for her mother and younger sisters descended into hysterics, her mother worst of all, and someone was required to manage things, to order the servants to carry the body of their master to the parlour, to lay him out there and cover him. Jane was as hysterical as the rest of them, at first, but Elizabeth found that if she gave her sister a command, it would be followed, and that Jane seemed calmer, when she had tasks to accomplish. As for Mr. Collins, he determined that his proper function was to assist with prayer, and quoting bible verses, which perhaps soothed Mary a little, but was of little benefit to anyone else in the household.

Eventually, Mr. and Mrs. Phillips came to lend their assistance, and Elizabeth went up to the bedchamber she shared with Jane, to rest for a few minutes, and have a little time in privacy, to finally mourn her father. She was not alone for five minutes, before there came a knock at the door.

It was Mr. Collins. She knew what he was going to ask, and she was horrified by it. Her father was not even cold, much less buried. That he would choose this time, of her greatest shock and vulnerability, that he would not even allow her a half-hour of quietude before forcing her to think of where her family was going to live, was completely abhorrent to her.

In that moment, she hated him, and yet she knew she would have to marry him regardless.

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December 6, 1811

Darcy heard no more from his friend. He spent the days following the breach in quiet reflection, shaken that his closest friend could call him proud, selfish, and arrogant, and shameful that as he considered his past behaviour, he could see the rightness of what Charles had said.

He did not know if Charles had sensed his tendre for Elizabeth Bennet, and if therefore his comment about Darcy’s pursuing his own happiness had been meant specifically, and not generally. He thought about this -- this alien concept of doing what he wished, without a thought of society, of asking the loveliest creature of his acquaintance to marry him. Yet if Charles thought these things of him, what must she think?

Still, he considered it, until one day, there was an announcement in the papers, short, simple, and incredibly wounding. It was not the one he had been expecting. “Miss E. Bennet, of Longbourn, in Hertfordshire, is betrothed to Mr. W. Collins, vicar of Hunsford, in Kent.”

Oh, Elizabeth, what have you done? was his only thought at first. Yet it was clear enough what she had done: she had acted to secure a home for herself and the remains of her family, and accepted the offer of that odious parson cousin of hers. Charles must by now have made his return to Netherfield, but not his offer, and poor Elizabeth had sacrificed happiness for security.

Darcy thought, in that moment, of going to Hertfordshire, of staying at an inn, if Charles would not have him at Netherfield, of making, in essence, a counter-proposal to her. Surely she would prefer him to Mr. Collins! Yet every reason to order his trunks packed and his carriage readied seemed to be followed by two reasons why he should not. The mother and the silly sisters could be set up in a separate establishment, somewhere in Derbyshire but not too near to Pemberley. To ask her to break her existing engagement would be substantial, but she was a woman, and could do so if she decided in Darcy’s favour. But, acting on the perceived impossibility of a marriage between them, he had been guarded with his affections; any proposal from him would come as a shock to her. Thinking of this returned his thoughts to conjecturing as to her opinion of him. If it was poor -- if she would refuse him, to choose that horrid man over him -- it would be his undoing. He thought of how it would be, of riding from an inn to Longbourn, of requesting a private audience, and the myriad ways in which she could refuse him.

It would be better to write to her, he thought. Putting his proposal in a letter would enable her to spend some time in deliberation between her two offers, to be informed of his affections in a manner that would be better done than what he would likely manage in speaking. And if she did choose to refuse him, whether out of preference or out of honour in keeping her present engagement, at least he would not have to hear her speak it. The shattering of his soul could occur in private, in the comfort of his study, with a decanter of brandy at hand.

Darcy gathered his writing things, and after spending the better part of the morning and a quire of paper on various drafts, finally arrived at:

“Dear Miss Bennet,

“Please accept my sincerest condolences on the death of your father. I believe you and he were close, and I am sure this makes what would already have been a difficult time all the more unbearable. Having lost both of my own parents, I can say that time will heal the wound somewhat, but never completely. I still feel their absence, even now, and believe I shall for the rest of my own life.

“Having seen news of your engagement in the papers, I should now congratulate you upon it. However, I cannot, for Mr. Collins has secured the very hand in marriage that I myself desire, and while I abhor breaking a commitment, and expect you do as well, I am going to request you do just that.

“I admire you greatly, and I have felt my affections towards you growing for some time, and wish that I had declared myself sooner, before another offer could be made to you. As I now find myself second, I will not attempt to compare myself with your betrothed, but will make the case for myself as best I can.

“Pemberley brings in more than 10,000 pounds every year, and sometimes nearer 11,000. Of that, I had thought 700 pounds an appropriate amount for your pin money, but that may be increased if you think it insufficient for your needs as a married woman. Your jointure, on my death, I would settle at 1,000 pounds, so that you have a sufficient amount to set up your own establishment. I do regret to say that Pemberley does not have a dower house, so this may be necessary. I would also set up an establishment for your mother and younger sisters, and to ensure Mrs. Bennet and any of your sisters who do not marry are kept in comfort for the whole of their lives.

“You would have your own bedchamber and dressing room, and no expense would be spared in decorating them to your taste, as well as any updates you desire to the rest of the house. It is a large house, but my housekeeper, Mrs. Reynolds, has held that post for eight years and is a most diligent and trustworthy woman, so you may decide for yourself what proportion of your time you wish to spend in household management.

“I would hope for a marriage in which your affections matched my own, but I fully understand that they may not, at the time of your reading this letter. I would ask only that you allow me to do all that I can to grow them over time. I await your response, and remain --

“Your most humble and obedient servant,

“FITZWILLIAM DARCY”

Once he had read it through several times, and determined it to be what he wished to say, and of appropriate tone to be proposing marriage to a young woman who has just lost her father, and accepted the hand of her cousin, Darcy then turned his mind to how to get it to her. It would not be appropriate to send it to her directly; the best thing to do would have been to send it to Charles, and ask that his friend give it to her discreetly. But as that was not an option, he eventually decided that the best thing to do would be to send it under cover to Mrs. Bennet. He did not think that woman liked his company, but he also did not think she would turn down the possibility of her daughter marrying into a greater income. Indeed, he thought, she might be his greatest ally at Longbourn. Thus another letter of condolence was written, to Mrs. Bennet, informing the woman that it covered one to her daughter, a proposal of marriage. He gave this packet to a servant to post, and then there was nothing to be done but wait.

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December 15, 1811

"I publish the banns of marriage between Miss Bennet, of Longbourn, and Mr. Bingley, of Netherfield Park. If any of you know cause or just impediment why these two persons should not be joined together in holy matrimony, ye are to declare it: This is the second time of asking."

"I publish the banns of marriage between Miss Elizabeth Bennet, of Longbourn, and Mr. Collins, of Hunsford. If any of you know cause or just impediment why these two persons should not be joined together in holy matrimony, ye are to declare it: This is the third time of asking."

Elizabeth listened to the banns in that mixture of sorrow and dread she had known since her father’s death and Mr. Collins’s proposal. Had she known that Mr. Bingley was to return, was not to stay in town for the winter as his sister had said he would, and had she known that he was to return and offer marriage to Jane, she most certainly would not have accepted Mr. Collins’s proposal. Mr. Bingley had been surprised at learning of Elizabeth’s betrothal, but it had made no impediment to him making his own declaration, and now Jane had the greatest comfort that could be had, in such a time, in the gentle sympathy of her husband-to-be.

Whenever the tide of dread rose too high, Elizabeth considered breaking the engagement. She considered it, and she desired it more than anything she had ever desired, and yet she would not go through with it. Some women, in some engagements, might be able to do so with little damage to their reputations, but Elizabeth knew that would not be the case for her situation. To break an engagement merely because another man had stepped in to provide her family the promise of security would be to expose herself to their neighborhood as fickle, and ungrateful. Nor was she entirely sure she would prefer being dependent on Mr. Bingley over being mistress of her own household, and in command of her own pin money, even if it meant she must be married to Mr. Collins.

Still, it was a relief to have him gone from the house, if just for a little while, for he had returned to Kent to settle his affairs there, and take his leave of Lady Catherine de Bourgh. Of all the misfortunes surrounding her father’s death, it was but one of them that Mr. Collins was living with them at the time, but it was one Elizabeth felt acutely. Not only was he there, to offer her marriage at such an inappropriate time, but there had also been no formal handover of the house, due to his constant presence. One day, he was a guest, and the next, he was the master. And in three days, he would be her husband.

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December 20, 1811

When a fortnight passed with no response from Elizabeth Bennet, Darcy began to fear he would not receive one at all. He thought over his letter, and wondered if it was too businesslike, not affectionate enough. He wondered if merely asking for her hand in marriage, when she was already betrothed, had been abhorrent to her -- so abhorrent, that she did not even think it worth a response. He wondered if her response had been misdirected in the post, or his own letter had gone astray, or whether he had been wrong about Mrs. Bennet’s willingness to give his offer to her daughter.

Misdirection of one letter or another could, at least, be rectified, and now, finally, Darcy ordered his trunks packed, and his carriage readied. Later that day, he saw the wedding announcement in the papers.

His despair upon seeing that Elizabeth was now irretrievably lost to him was complete. She was lost to him, and whether it was by choice, or by lack of knowledge that another option existed for her, he alone had been responsible. Oh, Elizabeth! Poor, lovely Elizabeth, to be locked in matrimony with such a man!

Darcy amended his orders, now, that the journey should be a return to Pemberley, that it should be delayed until after Christmas, and that Georgiana and Mrs. Annesley should prepare their things as well. For that was his only desire, now, to take his sister and return home.

It was too late to make any improvements as a lover, but he could improve himself as a brother, and as a man. There might not be any promise of happiness in that, but there would be satisfaction, at least, in correcting his ways, in better doing his duty. That was all he had to live for, now.

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